Atheism: A Story of Teenage Anguish Do you want proof from God? Ask Him. If you want to invent proof of His existence, you can spend all the logic in the world that the most that will happen is that your proof has a relative value: some will accept it, others will not; even you will be in doubt, for there is no proof that it is so absolutely perfect that it cannot be refuted in any way. Therefore, what you should do is ask someone more competent, for God Himself: “God, show me that You exist” Isn’t it simple? “Show that You exist, show that You love me, show that You are there” He will show.
It is just that you cannot stand before Him in the position of the scientific observer, because the scientific observer controls the experience and in order to have this kind of knowledge of God, it is necessary to transform yourself into nothingness, reach total passivity — but attentive passivity, without being sleeping, or in a mystical trance, or anything. You will just give up thinking about anything, you will know your total ignorance, your total nullity, your total lack of merit and it is in this position of this conscious nothingness that you will stand before God and see His action. This is the only way to know God, unless a miracle happens in the outside world, as it happened, for example, with those 70,000 people who were in Fatima. Nobody asked for anything and it happened. Those three kids did not ask for anything either, it was Our Lady who called them. This can happen to you, but if you are not so fortunate, you can ask God: “Act on me. Make me what I can’t be, what I couldn’t be. Teach me what I don’t know and what I won’t be able to learn for myself.” He will do that.